He knows just what I need

The past few days have been days of discouragement and many tears at times. I have been particularly frustrated with my son's behavior. His disobedience had taken it's toll.

I want so much for him, but I think sometimes my expectations are just too high. He recently made a profession of faith in the Lord and I forget that he has just begun this path of sanctification. He will not immediately nor completely act like Christ. I have been saved for almost 30 years and every day I struggle with acting like Christ!

I have felt like a failure at times. Many of his sin issues, he learned from me! I have felt incapable, unable to raise my son to be someone who loves God and who walks in His ways. I have felt alone and have been tempted to compare my son to other children. In my tears and discouragement today, I thought it time to pick up my Bible and devotional book that I recently purchased called "Sacred Parenting".

The Lord caused me to pick up this book and had already determined that I would read this fitting lesson on this day that I needed it so much. It amazed me as I read, and caused me to cry out in thanks to Him. He is so good to me. The lesson was entitled "The Right Person for the Job".  It spoke of the great discourager, Satan, who sometimes causes us to doubt, to feel incapable of accomplishing the task that God has called us to do. But he reminds us that God created us and our children and he, in wisdom, chose to place those children into our home. To doubt any of this is no less than doubting the very sovereingty of God. If we worry about what we lack in abilities as a parent, we can find comfort in God's promise: "He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all - how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?" (Romans 8:32). The author writes, "The stakes you face as a parent are much too great to go unnoticed by God who loves you - and your children - so much that he didn't spare his own Son in his zeal to redeem you. The God who did that is the God who watches over you now and this same God inspired you to pick up this book to hear these words anew. You are the right person for the job, because God himself has assigned you the task. And he is committed to seeing you through. In the end, that's all we need to know."

On another note, we mailed out our first ten deputation packets today! Looking forward to seeing what God is going to do as a result of these mailings!